im starting to realize that i was worrying to much about everything and im just going let happen whatever is going to happen, while still trying to things the right way.
Excellent attitude. Beekeeping is meant to be fun and relaxing. Bees are pretty resilient and unless you really "abuse" them, you will do fine. So have fun, learn from your mistakes and enjoy the exerience. Let's face it, if it becomes a chore, you'll stop doing it.
Just remember, everyone started as a newbee, unfortunately, some of us didn't have the internet to tell us what we were doing wrong and it took us longer to figure it out. So although it might seem overwhelming at times and feel like everything you do is wrong don't get fustrated. You will be up to speed in no time.