For anyone Confused, I'll wrap it up in a quick paragraph. But all events are related, eventhough years may have passed from one event to another.
In June 2001 I was bitten by a deer tick, giving me a rare version of Lyme Disease - Neurological Lymes or Lyme's Meningitis - they keep changing the name. It is when instead of traveling through muscles, slowly entering the body and doing its damage, with an onset time of 6 moths to a year. The speed of the poison's transmission to me was that it took a short cut RIGHT THROUGH MY SPINAL COLUMN and to my brain, it didn't stay muscular.
Instead, I was in the hospital in a few days for around a week while they did everythign from spinal taps to tons of tests, which finally showed Neurological Lymes. This particular devastating lymes usually causes muscular damage, spasms, death and extreme long term issues that take a long time to show.
Most people see the damage in a short time, others suffer long term issues including damaged parts of the brain coming to the fore front. My issue turned out to be frontal lobe damage, I have only 25% to 50% of the electrical activity it should have, that is what was left after fighting a brain infection with daily antibiotic shots for 3 months. I survived and the area of my brain damaged DOES NOT CONTROL MOTOR RERSPONCE, so it phyically isn't easy to spot.
I have dealt with loss of short term memory, scary memory issues that I cannot believe I forget. I've gone to the store before, went out to the car to go again FORGETTING I went the first time. My wife hears me using words when I talk that doesn't make any sense, and most resently I see it in my typing.
So for 6 years I had brain issues that followed the pattern the doctors told me to expect, but I never expected to pass out while driving (or passing out period) and being out of work 7 weeks while finding what was going on.
But the infection hurt my brain in an area that controls short term memory and emotional response - I assume that is why I often get teared up and emotional a lot. All the other parts of my brain are fine, but the front is messed up and I need to recognize that and explan that if it appears I'm not as sharp at writing anymore, I'm not.
But be careful with deer ticks. Look careful for these Varroa sized monsters that can kill you. Just to clear up why I passed out, the area of my brain should read electric signals between 4 and 10, that is normal frontal lobe numbers (scaled for simplistic reasons) I show a 2 to 3 constant reading, which although low (and explains my memory issues isn't the reason for passing out) that is because my electrical waves were SPIKING as high as 19 and this OVERLOAD the doctor believes caused me to faint, likely my brain was under some serious electrical activity for some time, so thinks the Neurologist. Finally a spike caused me to faint, maybe it was an extra long one that put me over the top.
Now I take Keppra, an Epileptic medication that STOPS the peaks by allowing better signals to better transfer and not build up so high to SNAP like lightning. I'm lucky that this part of the brain and severity of my problem STILL ALLOWS for me to drive as long as medicated. If another occurance does happen, I'm afraid I'll have my license revoked for 6 months or longer according to the law.
So, yes, a tick bites you on a Saturday, you end up in the hospital on the following Friday, remain there for over a week, take shots every day for 3 months and 7 years later you pass out while driving and it is all connected. Wow is all I can think.
I'm very careful now, I bought a new car (ok leased) a super nice ALL WHEEL DRIVE SUBARU LEGACY which is a safe and great road hugging car. I will be continued to have brain scans every 6 months and medication levels will be tested through blood work. But all should be fine.
I just do see myself slipping away a little at a time, I was advanced in school, always consider to be smart and it stinks when you see someone on TV that you know real well and can't think of their name. Or a more real scenario, your wife calls and asks you to do something, you not only don't do it but can't remember her calling. It isn't fun, just something I share here, because you are friends and I think it right that you know.
If I go a bit looney sometime at a member who is pushing me or others, I hope it doesn't sound like I'm tearing him a new one - I'm just trying to communicate with one part of my brain tied behind my back
I swear I'm a nice and a fair guy - I try so hard to make sense of the many members, old and new who have needs to be met, yet bear responsibility for their own actions too.
That is also why, when I make a decision, I'd rather feel I'm right and did the right thing, than try to make the most people happy with my actions. Right is easy to deal with, appeasing all members is a theorhetical impossibility, so I try to weigh what is right and stand by my decision. At least then, I have a solid basis to return to, not try to recall the hundred other things that were happening at the same time that could influence a decision. Heading a forum like this is fun, challenging, often has unpleasant things that come with the job, but ALWAYS the rewards out-weigh the negatives.
Thanks for reading if you have or haven't read all this a bunch of times already. I am very lucky to be here, reasonably healthy and a guy with a lot of friends he met through the forum - all in all, not a bad life